We went with the boat so it took us a little while to get ashore but the point was good; we were able to make some decent pictures of a storm brooding a few kilometers away (luckily otherwise we would have been in that storm...)

When we finally arrived in England we had to drive a few more miles to the hotel; which was in Watford (which is an hour and half away from London). We were in the hotel, had dinner and then went to bed at around 11 (British time).

The next morning we had to wake up at 6 am and then breakfast at 7. About an hour later we were on our way to London. Since the bus we go through had this tour through London we didn’t want to take we decided to get off the bus, once we were in London, and then find our own way; we went to Oxford street! Obviously! We did some shopping, I bought a few books and an album from Mark Read. I wasn’t able to browse around at my own pace because I had three other people to think about who don’t like record stores so I left before I finished which kind of sucked since I wanted to go to London for the HMV and since I didn’t have time to go through the DVD section I was just a tiny bit upset... okay not really, saved me a lot of money I’m sure! Anyway, at 4 pm we had to leave London and back to the hotel where we had dinner at 7, I believe. After that I went to the hotel to see if I still had Internet, which I did so I was all happy.

Next morning we had to wake up at 5 because at 6.30 we had breakfast and at 7 we would leave for Ireland. It was one of the longest drive ever, or at least it felt like that. The boat ride took about 1 hour and 15 minutes but to us it felt like 5 hours. When we finally arrived at the hotel which was at 9pm (we drove for about 14 hours and it felt like forever!). We did, however went to the village with the longest name in Europe ever! Which was awesome. Want to know it’s name? Here let me write it down for you: Llanfairpwllgwyngyllgogerychwyrndrobwllllantysiliogogogoch. Yeah, try pronouncing that! It means the following: St. Mary’s church in the hollow of the white hazel, near a rapid whirlpool, and the church of St. Tysilo near the red cave. So, yeah, we went there. Which, btw, is still in England.

After the long drive and boat trip we arrived at the hotel in Ireland. We arrived at 8 and had dinner at 8.30 at 10-11 we were done with dinner and can I tell you that it’s bloody annoying to wait so long until you can eat!!

The next day we went to Dublin. First we had this tour with the bus and saw a few sights in Dublin for example the Church of St. Patrick and we received some information about the city. It was interesting but the best part was when we were allowed to go out on our own. We went shopping. I was finally able to buy my Claddagh ring, which is something I’ve been wanting for a few years and now I finally bought it! So, I was rather happy to find a relatively cheap one, I mean I’m not going to pay 20 euros for a (silver) ring. also went shopping for books so I had a good time in Dublin.

After Dublin we went to the hotel in Nenagh. But not before seeing some of the sights of Ireland. We saw the longest waterfall in Ireland, I believe even one of the longest in Europe. Also went to the a garden but that isn’t even worth mentioning since it’s just a garden.

We also went to the Burren and this castle where there was a little village attached to it. I really like that village it was a little like how we lived many years ago and had a awesome time there. I asked one of the shopowners there why we see sheep everywhere and she explained that Ireland was famous for their sheep. Everywhere you go in the country you see wild sheep and that’s why they are famous for there sheep. I never knew that so it’s good to know now.

The Burrun was nice to see but after a about 15 minutes I had enough. I mean it’s just rock. So, yeah we were in the bus rather soon. Also went to see the Cliffs of Moher. That was rather boring I mean it was an amazing sight and all but I’m not a person who can spend hours staring at a cliff. So, we went shopping in the small shops there. Yes, I bought something there as well, a keyholder for in my new house and a magnet for on the fridge. It had the sigh of the Claddagh ring on it so I loved that. For those who don’t know the Claddagh ring stands for Loyalty (the crown) Love ( the heart) and friendship (the two hands). Also, if you wear it with the heart towards you, you are taken and if you were it with the heart pointing away from you, you are single and looking. It’s worn on your right hand and guess where I wear it...indeed on my right hand with the heart pointing away from me...

We stayed at Nenagh for three days so the second day we had a day off. My family and I went shopping in Nenagh and saw the sights. We went to the cathedral as well as the museum. But, I have to say, the best part of that day was the Spar... Yes, the supermarket. We went there to buy something to drink and eat and we received an entire tour from the owner. He introduced himself and his manager. Then we got about 5-6 euros of free stuff when we only bought things for about 3-4 euros. But, they were really friendly and we had a good time there.

The next morning we were on our way to Cashel. Where we visited the cathedral and had a tour which we didn’t finish and went shopping instead. Then back to the hotel in Waterford and to this crystal factory. After that we went back to the hotel where we stayed for two nights. We also went to Cork, and went shopping there. I didn’t like Cork all that much, I mean we first had a tour of the city and even that was rather boring. I liked the tour of Dublin better. But at least we saw some of Cork. The next day we had to get up early and go to the last hotel in Heathrow. Yes, near the airport but I have to admit that we didn’t hear any of the airplanes we only saw them so that was awesome. The boat trip from Ireland to England took us 4 hours but it didn’t feel like 4 hours more like 2. So, we had some fun times on the boat.

The trip from England to France that was a rather bumpy ride because there was a lot of find so most people looked drunk. I didn’t have that much problems with walking, only when there was a rather strong wind but other than that it was fine.

On Monday 23rd we arrived back at home. I’m glad to be back but also want to go back to Ireland. I absolutely love the country. It’s beautiful and has a lot of old buildings still in tact. It’s amazing to see how they survived. But, it’s also good to be back.

It’s been a while since I last blogged and that’s because a lot has been going on. Now let me start with the guy first.

As I’ve said in previous posts, this guy is interested in me but I don’t know what to do or how I feel. We hang out a few times which was fun; the weird part is that only at the goodbyes he shows his interest in me. Now I can safely say that I have no idea how you should act when you start going out but I always thought you’d show your interest the entire time you’re together. I guess what I’m trying to say is that he’s confusing me...and honestly I don’t like it. It feels like he’s ashamed of my when we’re going out but then at the goodbye’s he’s showing his interest. And yeah, it confused me a lot.

Yesterday, I went to his place to watch a film; Sherlock Holmes. Boring film, if I say so myself. He kissed me a few times and touched me and, yes, I may have liked it. *enter deep blush here*. But, and do I have to mention again that I have no experience in this matter, I think that he tries to rush everything. I mean... actually I don’t know how to explain it. It’s just that everything has to go fast with him...don’t get me wrong when I tell him to stop, he does. But...blah, I don’t know.

You know how you read in a book or see in a film that something happens when you kiss someone? You feel some sort of electric shock or something... yeah, I don’t really feel that when he kisses me. Again I can’t really put into words what I mean. Do I feel anything for him? No, or at least I don’t think so. But, and I told him this as well, I’m willing to find out where it leads. But what if I never feel anything for him? I may only end up hurting him and I don’t want to do that. Everything’s so confusing and I may confuse reality with fiction, since I have this idea of how it should feel but maybe that’s not real life and real life is just how it is now...

Now, other news... I may have my own apartment in 10-11 weeks! Yes, I’ve been trying to find a place of my own for a while now and hopefully it’ll happen soon enough. On Monday August 9 I have to sign the papers and then it’ll take about 10 weeks for everything to go through and I’ll get my keys. I’m so excited about it! I’ve been wanting this for about 4 years now and it’s finally happening!! Let’s hope it’ll happen! Because if the papers won’t go through then I won’t be able to get the house... Which, let me tell you, will suck!

Also, if I get the apartment, I’ll take a kitten. Yes, probably not the best idea since I don’t have any clue on how to raise a kitten but the opportunity presented itself and if everything goes right then I think I’ll get the kitten. It all just hangs on the fact if I get the house or not, because without the house I can’t have the kitten. My parents won’t allow another animal in the house (except perhaps fishes for my aquarium which I’m not going to buy until I have the new house).

Today (meaning August 1st), should have been my cousin’s 29th birthday. But when he was 13 he died of a brain tumor. I was 7 at that time but I still carry the hurt with me. The hurt of losing someone close to you. I may not remember much about him but I do know that I still miss him. We all do, it’s a simple fact. I used to feel sad for him, because he was all alone up there in heaven with no one to celebrate his birthday. Now that isn’t true anymore. He had my dog, Cindy who passed away in 2004. My grandfather who passed away in 2006. His dog, Dodi, who passed away in 2008 and my grandmother who passed away in 2009. He’s not alone anymore and that’s what’s given me strength. I miss them all but knowing they are all waiting for me... it’s an amazing thought.

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A nice dream where nothing goes wrong. The reality however is much more difficult. Now you’ve probably read my two previous posts where I talked about this guy. Yesterday we talked about it. It was nice, you know, him and me first just talking about random things, joking around with each other - which is something that I rather like. Later that evening he decides to go to my hometown with me. When I’m almost home we just stopped walking and talked some more.

He placed his arms on my waist and I was rather proud of myself that I didn’t flinch or shake him away. We got to talking about what happened the week prior and I told him, again, that all this was new for me. He leaned in a few times to kiss me, and I don’t know what happened but I know that I find kissing someone complicated. I just can’t seem to get it right. But, like I told him, I have him to practice with.

At one point I began to become a little embarrassed; I’m twenty-three years old and I’ve never kissed someone. Now, I know this is by my own choice and I don’t regret it but I’m a little embarrassed about that tiny little fact. He was quick enough to assure me and told me I’m just a sweet little innocent girl... I’m not sure how to take that but I thought it was rather nice (nicer than laughing at me).

I know that the only thing I can give him is honesty and that’s exactly what I’ve been giving him. I tell him that I don’t know much about this .... whatever it is. That I don’t know how I feel when he kisses me but I can tell you with all honesty that I didn’t not like the kiss(es)... I also told him that I’m interested in seeing where this is going, and to tell you the truth, I am.

[- I want to give a quick thank you to Victoria for her advise. It helped, so thank you!!]

It turns out...he does like me. How did I find out? Simple, after school last Monday he went to the trainstation with me, when he normally goes with a classmate because they live rather close, and...kissed me. Yes, can you imagine someone wanting to kiss me? No, neither can I. But he did. Now mind it was just a peck on the lips because I was rather shocked by it... Well, no I wasn’t shocked I was more: What do I do now?

A little history on my past relationships: in my entire life I’ve had two boyfriends both we didn’t go any further than holding hands. So, you can imagine I’m rather inexperienced when it comes to dating, relationships and anything that evolves around that.

At the time I couldn’t really process what had happened but I hope I was reassuring him that I didn’t mind... at all. Appearently I failed at that because yesterday I got a text message where he asked me if he had shocked me. I told him he hadn’t that I just didn’t know what I should do. Later that evening he called me and we talked.

He told me that he rather liked me, thought I was beautiful (which I of course didn’t believe) and that I’m rather nice. He also asked me what I felt. I told him, honestly, that I don’t know for I really don’t know how I feel. I had wanted to give myself some time to think about it but I fear that he didn’t wanted to give me that time for he feared he had shocked me. I of course told him he hadn’t and that I (really) didn’t mind. So we talked...for like an hour and half. But it was fun - by the way; he was rather pleased to hear my voice (which made me embarrassed and thankful we were on the phone). After our phone conversation we spend some time talking on gtalk.

Back to the point; what do I do? I’ve no clue for I’ve never had a relationship before and I’m not even sure I want a relationship with him. How do you know you want to have a relationship with someone?

To tell you the truth, although I never thought I’d ever be in this (are similair) situation I had dreamed about it. The reality is so much harder and I’m struggling to find out what to do, what do say to him so I don’t hurt his (or mine) feelings... Sometimes I wish I had someone to talk to about these sort of things...maybe then things would be clearer to me.

My and my classmate have talked about this and what we think of what are classmates are doing. We both agreed that we should just let them talk. He has also told me that he isn’t looking for a new relationship and I can totally understand that.

Yet, sometimes the way he is with me indicates he wants more. For example; once he and I were waiting for my train to arrive and he was standing rather close to me and I mean really close; totally in my personal space. Castiel couldn’t have done it any better (*sorry for t he Supernatural reference). Yesterday we were at his house doing some homework because he has broken his toe and wasn’t able to go to school. He took me to the busstation, because I didn’t know where it was. There he gave me a kiss on the cheek...nothing special right? Then why couldn’t I stop smiling?

Even now, when I think about it, I have a smile on my face. But it doesn’t mean anything, right? The kiss doesn’t mean anything because he’s not interested in a new relationship? And do I even want a relationship with him? How do I know? I don’t understand this...what does this mean?

But, even though I wasn’t at the front of the stage I had an amazing time. Round 8 or 9 in the morning my sister and I went to Tilburg, which is about 40-50 minutes away from our hometown. When we arrived we immediately went to the venue and saw about 50 people there already waiting. Note that it was about 9 am and the concert would begin at 8 pm. My sister and I decided to walk around town because we didn’t feel like waiting in line.

We had a good time walking through the city later with Gary as well. When it was time to go to the concert we were somewhere in the back. At one point this rather tall person went to stand in front of me and we asked him to take a few steps down; suddenly he started bitching. My sister and I, we were both like ‘WTF?!’ and eventually he left. So I could see the stage clearly.

Make Believe went on and they were good, not amazing but good. Then, finally it was time for 30 Seconds To Mars. They started with ‘Escape’ and went right into ‘Night of the Hunter’. Jared was nuts! He did talk way too much and often I was like ‘Shut the f*ck up and sing already’ but the concert was still amazing. He sang a part of Lady Gaga’s Bad Romance with perverted lyrics. He also sang, and that must have been the highlight for me, Alibi! It’s definitely my favourite song and Jared sang it! He has such an amazing voice and completes this song completely.

Of course, they sang the kill which was awesome as well. What I didn’t like, however, was when Thirty started singing ‘One Hundred Suns’ the fans messed up the summit parts. They started way too early. I was like ‘If you don’t know the song don’t bloody well sing it!’ but, hey, that’s just me!

All in all, the concert was amazing. Shannon even went crowdsurfing. That was hilarious! Jared obviously jumped into the crowd during ‘The Kill’ and Tomo and Tim went nuts. I have the entire concert (excluding Kings and Queens) on my computer and am definitely watching it soon.

After the show my sister and I went outside and got a picture with Shannon. I had hoped Jared, Tomo and Tim would get out as well but by the time we left they hadn’t come out yet and I didn’t feel like waiting hours at an end.